Waking up to let go and letting go to wake up

I didn’t sleep from 2:20 til almost 6 so when I finally slept again, it was til 8:30:( ….

The thrill of the unknown is significant in my upcoming adventure and I have no idea but an outline in terms of what to expect….. Same with any state in life that worries me, you, anyone. I could look at the outline as 1.)what I don’t have and want OR I could see the outline as 2.)all that I do have and get excited about how much I could do with that to make so much work.

The first scenario makes me freeze with fear and makes me feel powerless. It’s a mindset that puts me into a box that once again, has nothing to do with who I am, just maybe one aspect of the material life that we exist in here on planet Earth. This mind set not only is limiting but when focsed on is also detrimental to the healthy components of life as it’s tentacles spread like a cancer to take over and shut a person down.

The second way of seeing may be a bit of “denial” in regards to everyday but it may be a healthy denial. Rather than pining at lack, this attitude is one of gratitude and hope. It sees the positives and is energized by that. The energy generated creates more positive flow that gets more forward motion done with ease and determination. A KNOWING attitude wins and looking at blazing ahead in my own dream, riding the risks, daring it all to live life as fully as I know how. And even if all failed as I understand the definition of failure to be, I’d have triumphed for the experiences in that ride would all be worth the risk one takes to live a dream.

In the adventure that ventures into unknown caverns more is revealed – a knowledge and wisdom that carries one further into a life of success that can only be known and defined by only those brave enough to seek it.

So as I wrote my very brief metaphor yesterday I realized in my awake state of those early hours I was searching for all that I had learned security to mean. I felt it’s lack and fear crept in like a big black cloud to thunder on my parade. Yet if I put myself into my mind’s definition of security would I be any more secure? I realized that security is a choice, just like everything else! Then the thrill of the thoughts of the places, the spaces, the people, the land, the trails, the business, the photography, the climbing, the running, car camping – the thoughts ( from just an outline on a map and a yellow note on a page of iPhone notepad) thrill me and scare me slightly as I’m “riding the edges” along the outside of my comfort zone. It’s then that I picked option 2.

I let go as if I felt God’s voice saying to me, “there is no security in clinging to anything. Let go, Cut the thread and feel the bouyancy that comes from letting go to ride your dreams.” And in that moment I felt pure bliss as I faded away to dream some more….

This morning, I wake late and I realize that what I learned in the wee hours of the night is the way I want to cross into every journey, even the final one.